Day 106. 2021 Apr 14
- perhaps only that the Lord’s grace will keeps working on my attitude .. in doing my services with the right attitude: eager, faithful but humble and grateful. This is the way of the kingdom here. This is the way of increase faith. This is the way of protecting the seeds which were given to me. I am the protector, I am the representor of the Lord for the people in my circles: core fam, big fam, colleague, neighbors.
- I’m overwhelming with gratefulness .. in thanksgiving section .. and I know I want to continue His way, working on my attitude again: to the Lord, to my given body, to spouse, kids, to my big family, to boss, colleagues, to the neighbor vnese moms, the people in need around the world, the girls, women, mothers who needs a little of uplifting to continue their ways.
- I’m surprised at my outward attitude toward the event that I discovered the neighbor’s kid (2 year) going to the same hoikuen: I greeted & chatted with the parent inside and outside hoikuen with an natural eager attitude; and I thought forwardly on the kids becoming friends .. even I acknowledge there are uncertainty .. Somehow, He is working on my attitude and my prayer is answering .. as long as I commit to my attitude of humility and faithful service and asking for promotion .. instead content in accepting what are requested and given (relationship with my manager).
- Such a peaceful and united sense at our meals: both lunch & dinner yesterday with the kid. Spouse kept saying yummy and expressed a sense of satisfaction. The kid is talkative and expressive and happy. I did make her cry 2 times in threating to taking away her stickers if she is not commit to clean her stuffs .. but thankfully I was managed to keep my voice low and follow up with explanation which seems to make sense to the kid. Thank you Lord. Indeed, I was managed, not I managed. amen
- I passed the steam programming course to my big fam .. I don’t know how it would go but I hope the Lord let it bear fruits for my big fam’s next generation.
- I re-read my journal of this time last year and learnt that at that moment I was stilling fighting hard to disappointment to my spouse, guilt to my kid .. but after a year (even I felt very challenging) the reality has changed totally. We exchanged words this morning about how blessed we are .. out of remote work .. that the kid is so happy and benefit a lot: learning a lot of things. And I said to him this is the Lord’s work, I don’t know how he is thinking but .. I hope for good .. as he prayed for us on bed the night before (the kid is playing well her function in jointing us all together)
- Shihen 46:1-4 JCB “神は私たちの隠れ家、また力、苦難にあえぐときの確かな助けです。ですから、たとえ全世界が破裂し、山々が崩れ落ちて海に沈むようなことがあっても怖がることはありません。海よ、鳴りとどろき、白く泡立つがよい。山よ、激しく揺れ動くがよい。喜びの川が、あらゆる神々にまさる神であられるお方の聖なる住まいのある都市を流れます” (there is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy habitation of the Most High)
- Luke 17:15 ESV “then one of them, when he saw that he was healed, turned back, praising God with a loud voice; and he fell on his face at Jesus’s feet, giving thanks. Now he was a Samaritan. .. v19 ‘rise and go your way; your faith has made you well’ ”
- Luke 17:20–36 ESV “ ‘the kingdom of God is not coming in ways that can be observed’ .. ‘the kingdom of God is in the midst of you.’ .. to the disciples .. ‘just it was in the days of Noah, so it will be in the days of .. they were eating, drinking and marrying and being given in marriage .. buying, selling, planting and building .. and the disciples said to him: where, Lord? .. ‘where the corpse is, there the vultures will gather’ ”
- I received today that the kingdom of God is here and now .. in-observable with eyes, data or stats .. it is HERE already among those us who acknowledge Jesus and the working power of the God of Jacob. Still, like the 9 persons in the scripture today, i might take it for granted .. thinking it will come in an more obviously way. My life and my family lives were redeemed and we are all living in the twilight of light and darkness. Darkness is so close within us, or waiting to be transferred to us (rob the light within us) from the same persons in a same bed or same room .. My mission and battle is to acknowledge the battle between the Lord and Sins (Adam & Eve committed first) and I need to learn His ways to fight his battles: surrender and trust and faithfulness and humility (right attitude even during or after doing a good job). amen
- Remind me and my family everyday that the Kingdom is right here among us. We need to shape our hearts and eyes to see and live the Rules of it. Rules of blessing, of salvation. Rules which were promised to be set free if we are each connected with the Holy Spirit. amen