Purpose of me to be here: serve people at work with the character of someone knows the heaven culture. Bear Fruits that will LAST.

John 15:16 NIV. you didn’t choose me. I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit — fruit that will LAST — and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you.

Apr 8. Fri

Life challenge

• it’s gonna be a tiring friday. pay attention. charge God’s power
• I felt pressure for early morning mtg → maybe I can cancel on them when it is shared about my pregnancy

Worship

• ♫ all the good you’ve done for me .. the only One who brings me to my knees .. so I kneed before You, God. .. proclaimed that I am Yours. All that I am, I place it to Your mighty hand. I am Yours. Here I am. I stand with arm wide open to the One, the everlasting God.

Observation

• An’s morning walk to school wasn’t an enjoyable time. too much bags and nimotsu that tired her and make she want to amai on me. negative impact on both of us. I am already too tired to be clear in my mind

Negativity/Doubt

• The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.
• do I have love, joy, peace, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control at all? I don’t feel so. I felt tired, I felt guilty. I felt irritated. I felt behind everyone else (no, just people has promotion recently).
• Is the Lord’s Spirit with me?
• I am happy for my base raise and total compensation, but why do I just couldn’t be happy as I should. I want to cry out loud for such a uncertain emotions and bitterness.
• Is the Lord ever leading me to somewhere?
• What do I do? will I leave Him for self-destruction. absolutely not. whatever is happening around. I know who i good to be with.
• But I am tired of waiting Lord. For my promotion, my day of recognition to come.

Receive

• big question: am I enough? when you understand who you really are in Christ, you live life to the full, the way that God intended.
• Recall the PURPOSE for me to be here in this environment: Serve People at Work with the character of someone knows the heaven culture.

Pray

• I found me again Lord, after this quiet time fighting my own evil thoughts and walk through Your words. I have a purpose at work. I have a purpose with my spouse. I have a purpose for my children. I have a purpose for social circles. I was tiring because of this struggling season, but I am found by You. I will continue to walk today Lord. I believe that You chose me for this journey, back from a long time ago. I am here not to earn fruits that will perish but to bear fruits that LAST. for the people of the culture of heaven. amen.
• I pray for boldness at work, at home, at society.
• I pray for wisdom at home, toward leading our children.