Leader Capacity = the Spiritual Model + Daily Habits & Decisions

Day 165. 2021 Jun 12

End of Journaling time

I am not stuck anywhere (no matter how I felt) I am moving forward and the Lord has been building up capacity on me. I just need to continue on evolve my spiritual model (faith), build up on daily habits (journaling, running and connecting) and daily decisions/battles (decide to stay, fight the challenges using the swords of the Words of God, His Holy Spirit and pleasantly observe my capacity being enlarged). amen.
Pray for the way of the Lord: the way of courage, peace and joy be the way for all creature in your created world.

Wash

I saw a post from LF Tokyo on FB asking are you in a unhealthy state e.g. feeling unsatisfied, uncertain etc. .. I knew I am there, given everything I own and being given has been good beyond expectation. Indeed, only walk and connect with the Lord could bring a healthy spirit: grateful heart is the source of a joyful heart, a hopeful spirit is living spirit, and only these are fruits from the Holy Spirit.
I knew I need to go back to this time of journaling, it has been unstable in prioritizing works and relationship with spouse. But I believe it wasn’t a waste as HERE I am, I am back to this wonderful time ♪ the song in my ears and the excitement in my heart, who can have it!!

Thanksgiving

I need to and .. a bit progress in feel less tension about my strava sharing (I’ve been nervous and plan the impractical of increase both the speed, the distance .. while transition-to-summer is coming and made it way harder) .. After the rest period, I am running the shortest distance and shortest time ever, but I am grateful that I still be able to do it .. sweating a bit every morning and a shower is such a great experience. My mouth said about a life time but I should change it to my hope for it to become a life time habit but my tension should only be today and now, burning with gratefulness and joy and humility

2020 Journaling: leadership capacity = ability to handle stress better

— WHY: you don’t have a stress issue, it is capacity issue. Enlarge my capacity to fulfill God’s call
— — Psalm “Whenever I was in distress, you enlarged me”
— — 2 Corinthians 6 MSG “the smallness you feel comes from within you. Your lives aren’t small but you’re living them in a small way.. Live openly and expansively”
ACTION in short-term vs. Stress & Distress
— option1: run away. cost = miss the fulfilment the plan of God
— option2: 3 actions: DECIDE to stay & grow larger than the challenges (stress). TRUST. SPEAK the Words of life. reward=fulfilment from God’s calls
— — Philippians 4 MSG “instead of worrying, pray. Let PETITIONs and PRAISEs shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns”
ACTION in long-term — bring BALANCE into my life
— BUILD “balanced” & “consistent” HABITs that nurture my spiritual, physical & mental health (journaling, running, regular connection)
— EVOLVE THE SPIRITUAL MODEL: lean on FAITH (the truth) that whatever highs/lows in life are for me to grow my CAPACITY (God already equips in me the ability to navigate them well, to live a worthy of calling life, a productive and fulfilling life)

Listen

I am still amazed about these miracles .. and I confirmed my belief that it was exactly like Jesus said: the disciples would do the same or even greater things!! perhaps my faith in the Lord is not enough .. plus my journey with him long but not deep/close enough. amen

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