God’s walking me in this new trouble season .. long enough time (like Jesus’s 40 days trials in the desert before be temped by Satan) to be transformed .. to be ready for the next big thing. This is His grace to change and prepare me. I know it well from the most recent big thing (transformed marriage, home and children increase) that He brought to my life in last 4 years. I look forward to the coming 4 years, for a big transformed at work and society relationship and environment.

  • fam is a great home, where I found nothing but rest, harmony, connection and joy of my eyes and ears. girl talk on bed is becoming something between An and I.
  • morning breakfast out is such a blessing time. i enjoyed the book I read and time to just sit down with spouse and talked
  • I see change in spouse attitude in responding to An’s at meal table. I am grateful that God helped us out so naturally: i started reading the book passionately, we started breakfast out and fam out at botanic garden and talked and shared and he agreed that we should be reminding her patiently until she is ready, not forcefully to her by our attitude like now.
  • thankful that despite lots of work, I didn’t have work association sleep trouble. I hope God continues help me to control my emotions.
  • An is catching up well with her daily activity at school and classess.
  • Spouse is a great source of help in following up with her.
  • ★I want to pray for spouse for his work situation to get improved, but I felt helpless. I am such a powerless partner. I know God takes time to change someone and He requires us to come to Him. I need to pray more for him.
  • benpi, gas, my body is heavy and not in a good condition. I need healing and discipline even more
  • lack of peace at work: too much work topics at work, I loosing focuses at the moment. I wonder if it comes from me, that the list I made too long and caused such a situation like it. I’d like to live everyday peacefully.
  • there are authorities (govern, law, responsibility ..) but we have the choice to decide whose opinion has authority in our lives
  • .. somehow we let others (close family, social media, work situation) tell us that we are not enough. … only allow God and His words the ultimate authority in our lives
  • like Jesus be led to desert for 40 days and night before being tempted by Satan .. God could let us walk in trouble for a certain long enough time to be transformed .. this is His grace to change us. I know it for myself. This season could be that 40 days and night trial .. for me to make me ready for the next thing.
  • Matthew 4:10 GNT Jesus answered “go away, Satan. the scripture says, Worship the Lord your God and serve only Him.”
  • James 4:7 GNT submit yourselves to God. Resist the Devil and he will run away from you.
  • Ephesians 6:20 GNT build up your strength in union with the Lord by means of his mighty power. put on all the armor that God gives you so that you will be able to stand up against the Devil’s evil tricks.
  • Matthew 11:28 GNT come to me, all of you who are tired from carrying heavy loads and I will give you rest.
  • core vision: growing marriage and foundation (loving) home for the kids
  • core vision: foundation of faith, body, habits and starting social experience for the kids
  • core vision: loving, kind and truthful-in-my-words character (my identity as His children: content and hopeful)
  • core vision: God’s wisdom: have within me the sufficient God’s words and love ready to help me stand strong in deal w. people and guide them to the light. Stand strong (when listen and understand to them) in by “clothes myself with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience”. ★ perhaps, this is the area God is building up in me to grow/expand myself. somewhat links to my purposes at work (and support spouse in his work situation)
  • 22 spring vision — pregnancy (1): benpi and exercise, eating discipline.
  • 22 spring vision — home(5): foundation of faith, body, self-care habits, social experience. NEXT: cont. on eat, bathcare, read bible app, talk at home about issues at her daily social days.
  • 22 spring vision — home(5): a global 3rd home in english country. NEXT: travel to big cities in the world. Pray for a EU trip on Aug.
  • 22 spring vision — church (10): start from lifehouse kids. NEXT: equip them with bible characters and knowledge about a global world (countries, flag, food, news) through quiz and game times.
  • 22 spring vision — close social (20): practice cooking and explore good hang-out places in prep for hospitality. NEXT: practice on baking pies and invite people for hang-out (botanic garden)
  • 22 spring vision — work(40)(a) prep for promo doc to DS3. NEXT: what values I want to bring to the team/org (people I interact with everyday). Build up trust and loving (supporting) relationship with them, help them feel the taste of good relationship at work. Help drive the progress of projects that people are interested in working on and give the credit/opportunity to them.
  • 22 spring vision — work(40)(b) convert to AS3/science manager (while earn hand-on skills w. builder tools + ML train/deploy tools + offer my commitment (attendance and contribute) to science communities). NEXT: Build up trust and loving (supporting) relationship and offer my commitment (attendance and contribute) to the larger science community.
  • 22 spring vision — large social (100+): share about my learning offsite (at fam trip, hang-out) and online (via FB or a separate blog). NEXT: start sharing about my reading, thoughts and observation
  • pregnancy (1): 腸活 learning. TODAY: banana morning, light dinner.
  • pregnancy (2): exercise habit. TODAY: walk despite the rain
  • pregnancy (3): refresh habit. TODAY: breakfast out and book reading and chatting at cafe. hope
  • home (2): cont. soup+ veggie training. TODAY: cont. w. encouraging rather than forcefully through a rule.
  • home (3): 1:1 regular sharing time w. An (including bible quiz dev time). TODAY: chatting before bed, the nonbiri time, bathtime
  • church (1): dev bible and country quiz w. An. TODAY: create quiz dev based on the bible appli w. An
  • social (1): continue audible books, news, 受験知識. share about my learning offsite (fam trip, hang-out) and online (via FB). TODAY: continue the book 生きる力 and perhaps share a brief a bout it.
  • social (2): cook more hospitality menu (baking kana). TODAY: cook dinner today or pho dinner.
  • work (1): promo doc to DS3. TODAY: skeleton of doc to send to manager
  • work (2): promo to DS3. establish my contribution at team (a mixed engineer and science team), help build standard for processes and run effective meetings. TODAY: run effective meetings (project and scrum master), build up SOP for team.
  • work (3): promo to DS3: shape up forward-looking collaboration projects w. other teams. 2 opportunities: negation and pharmacy. TODAY: rich communication with current authors and offer help including investigation.
  • work (4): convert-to-AS3/science-manager: hand-on skills w. builder tools + ML train/deploy tools. TODAY: continuous learning with communities e.g. nlp-study-group, science review meetings, study w. spouse (more buddies)
  • work (5): convert-to-AS3/science-manager: establish my contribution in the larger science community. TODAY: be a committer and cheerer in our csnlp science review communities.

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