Anxiety step #1: 他人/グループの成長を願い、適切な範囲・形で、働きのスコープもっと広がることを望む

Day 255. 21 Sep 10 Fri. Theme = … navigate uncertainty … あなたがたの成長を願い(desire, motivation for others)、許された範囲・形・仕組み(mechanism)で、私たちの働きがもっと広がる(personal goal)とを望んでいる


  • life-contentment-health: re-started morning run today after a short break of menstrual period, sleepy but satisfied.
  • life-contentment-fam: morning cafe with spouse continues well. He’s excited and focusing on foobar coding challenge of google ^^.
  • life-contentment-children: An focus and cooperation on vnese study and CE continues well.

Life challenges

  • work-anxiety: i cann’t help but feel a slight sense of anxiety (hard to have a total free mind, but keep thinking about the problem and solution) when received an new task, assignment. The more unfamiliar the task is, the more impactful the anxiety tend to be. Symptom are sleep quality, attention for others, miss some level of daily high quality commitment e.g. breakfast quality, engagement at fam conversation time.
  • plan-anxiety: I am satisfied and content with my building-up habit of tracking behavior/commitment on priorities of the month. But staying behind for some key topic of interest (e.g. science interview, coding interview self training) is such a slight but endless pain. I understand that these are area II, not urgent, important, and it requires mental capacity and high focus time. I need to plan it better e.g. decided time for these activities .. but it is hard and anxious looking at under-commitment over the time.

Receive and Apply: use God’s weapon, not human plan/strategies

  • コリントの信徒への手紙 II 10:3–5 (JCB)私がごく当たり前の弱い人間であることは事実です。しかし私は、戦いに勝つために人間的な計画や方策を用いません。悪魔の要塞(ようさい fortress)を打ち破るために、人間の手によらない神の強力な武器を使います。この武器は、神に逆らうあらゆる高慢な議論と、人々の目から神を隠している、あらゆるを打ち砕きます。この武器を用いて私は、反抗する者を捕虜(ほりょ-prison of war)として神に連れ戻し回心させて、キリストに従わせます。
  • same 10:13 私たちは持ってもいない権威を誇るようなことはしません。私たちの目標は神様が立ててくださった計画を実現することです。それには、そちらであなたがたのために働くことも含まれています。…他の人の業績を自分のものだと主張しているのでもありません。ただ、あなたがたの信仰が成長し、私たちに許された範囲であっても、あなたがたの間私たちの働きもっと広がることを望んでいるのです…


  • Lord, I am inspired deeply by your chosen persons words. There are deep level of humility and authority and honesty. I felt that I already received the right narrative for my mtg with director today. Help me to always remember that my life goal is to realized your planned plans for myself. amen
  • I pray for 2nd child to join us, amen.



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