確信 about God’s working working on my challenges continuing from last year: work-anxiety, children-discipline, fam-time, personal plan. 疑う人の心は、風に波立つ水面のように不安定なものです。そんな疑いの心では、主に何も期待してもむだです. I am 確信 about my career next step, pray for the right companion.
Oct 6. Fall is here. Sleep deviation
- An’s milestone: she cried a lot after knowing that she won’t be able to watch dragon ball with daddy like the night before. We told her that was because we watched too much the day before. But she didn’t accept it. She told us because she didn’t enjoy the けん玉教室 as she practiced but couldn’t do it well. Was a hard time but I felt the strength of her emotion in not accepting things easily. She wants to be good at everything? This is something I want to observe more and coach her well with God’s wisdom
- Spouse’s milestone: awareness to run more. have meditation time before bed. on bed early.
- My milestone: simple but good dinner with fam, leveraging oisix. taking time to talk with s.ota (casy) before sending her off. Find joy (exciting) in 🛫learning MLOps🛫 (watched DevCon22 and SageMaker for automating MLOps pipelines). Also, 🛫cont. to walk 40 min in the morning everyday🛫. 🛫Emotion and mindset shift quickly🛫: the trouble about grandpa cannot come on time.
✅children-discipline: An is losing the momentum of sanitary habits e.g. ofuro time, morning tooth brush.
✅work-anxiety: manager is granting me more tasks working directly with him. last week mtg with Okier was promising in giving a push for manager to design work in broader scope for myself. still my heart is waved by its potential of busy work, plus my ready ability, plus trust in my manager and peers.
🛫health-habit: morning running habit is great, but my unstable condition (sleepy, my fat belly also distracting myself …)
✅fam-time: … anxiety as lacking of time in journaling .. while more time with spouse and .. this is a internal conflict within myself
🛫personal plan — anxiety: under achieve on plans of science interview, hand-ons deep learning etc. .. raise some hidden anxiety
✅Thank you for teaching me to refuse and separate sharply doubts in my heart and keep asking and act based on it with affirmed belief.
🌸I pray for your plans to be realized in my life, for me to know and set them as highest priority in my life.
✅I pray for opportunity to experience broader scope at work .. so that I learn to free my fearful heart and learn to expand your love for the wider team.
✅I pray for a 2nd child, healthy and beautiful to join us in this world, so that this new sweet challenge will build up your godly patience and expand myself into a family unity self with your wonderful love to be shown and lord over us all. amen
- I am making progress and continue working on last year anxiety, desires with a different mindset now. Indeed, God is working on me. amen
- double-minded: ヤコブの手紙1:8 (JCB) 疑う人の心は、風に波立つ水面のように不安定なものです。そんな疑いの心では、主に何も期待してもむだです
- Lord, it is my 臨月 and i’m having sleep disorder again. Heal me and prepare me well in rejoy in this season, amen.
- Thank you for working on me continuously from last year. I have changed further Lord. Help me to continue to level up in Your wisdom and equip me with strength and wisdom to lead others better: children, fam, people around me. Lead with ears, follow up with tongue and keep anger last. amen.
- I pray for Your providing companion for my career next step Lord. I want to maintain this 確信 that You’ll help me and is shaping the way for me, amen.